Had my last two scheduled lectures this morning, after which I filled in a feedback form, regarding this year, and then the overall three years. I still feel like a fresher, completely unprepared, scared to put my hand up, unsure of what people will think of me.
And yet, significantly, I'm not. I just underappreciate the skills that I have been provided with, and what people think of me, and the confidence God has placed in me. All I ask is that I rely on him more than I do myself.
This faff over expenses: it amuses me. While yes, I'm disappointed that our elected leaders (not my elected leaders, mind - missed out on the election by a matter of months, still a young'un) have fiddled, fixed and fabricated their expenses, it doesn't surprise me whatsoever. The most frustrating element is the fact that there will be 'big reforms'. Lead by who, you ask? The same MPs that claimed expenses. In the long term, I imagine that parliament will settle down into exactly the same rhythm under a different name, and no-one will be any the wiser.
My most sincere concern is that the large proportion of MPs that did claim their expenses are now going to hide behind the resignation of Michael Martin - if they can convince the public that he was to blame for the entire culture, then they've got off lightly. He, aside from being one of many who made claims, was not to blame for the way that the expenses were doled out, nor in the way that MPs claimed for them. However, I worry that his resignation will be brandished as a prophetic sign of movement, or change, or reform. It's not. It's the bullies pushing the most vunerable bully to the front of the crowd to take the proverbial slipper, in the hope that if he takes the hit, others will not have to.
One thing to bear in mind, however, is the complete and utter legality of the expenses system. In most ways, it was not the MPs fault that they could claim such ridiculous expenses. However, the fact that its faults were rarely pointed out does indict them, and as such, reform should take place.
Keen on buying a whole set of Biblical commentaries. Have just discovered that this could be upwards of £700 pounds. Less keen, now.